To Hit... or to Run.

never thought i'd be faced with the option of killing a person or saving myself.

Ive realized tonight that i don't just say I'm a selfish person.. i'm gonna ride or die that shit.

so i'm coming home after working bar shift at the restaurant. it was a relatively easy night so i found myself to be more relaxed and very less uptight. normally, on a crazy night it gets my anxiety going sky high and i find myself thinking of outrageous things, which usually leads me into a state of paranoia. tonight however, was different.  which screwed me.

my shift ended and i waited for my boss (which also happens to be my closest friend here in the big cit-ay) to be done so we could go have a drink and catch up. which we do. for a while. but i digress....

i'm on my drive home, relaxed carefree and jammin out to my spice girls remix. i always take the same route-- never any back roads, never any unlit streets and never... under any circumstance make eye contact.  there's one street however that is ALWAYS red when I get to it. and it's not flashing so i can't just drive through it--- which i've learned since being here,..

i approach the light (red as usual) and see three people crossing the street. Two women and a man (at least anatomically) and I approach very cautiously and slowly. They are making it across safely but as they're crossing my street their glance met mine....... the leader of the pack met my stare so intensely it immediately sent shivers up my spine. Her eyes followed mine the entirety of her endeavour but i broke it as soon as possible by looking at my phone for a quick glance. FYI- studies show when drivers look at their phones it takes 4.6 seconds.. so I'm assuming in that time she would have had enough seconds to get the eff across the street and forget about me but NOPE. She didn't.

She stopped, he stopped and the third she beast followed suit. They all came back to my car... HOW LONG IS THIS FRIGGIN RED LIGHT GONNA LAST?!?!??!  It is in that moment I decided, I don't care.. whoever gets hit when I turn left is gettin it.. and I had 911 already dialed (you all know how i feel about pedestrians and reporting incidents). Finally the light turned green before she could lunge at my vehicle but I've never felt so creeped or skeeved out ever...

Not a real funny story but holy balls did I almost need some depends....